BOSTON (CBS) – A Boston firefighter accused of making deadly threats against his bosses and the city spoke out about the allegations against him Monday outside of court.

Police say Kenneth Veiga threatened to smash a fire truck and told his commander he was upset with city hall, fire department headquarters and the firefighters union.

“The difficulty that’s been put on my family and myself has been tremendous,” Veiga said when asked how he felt about being exonerated. “I’ve never had or would never wish upon anyone, ever, to have what has happened in the last few weeks, happen.”

Veiga was allegedly upset because the department was forcing him to return to work.

“I will be proud of the public service I have given and a lot of decisions have to be made,” Veiga said.

Veiga would not comment on whether he will return to his job. He is a 24-year veteran of the department. It is unclear whether he remains on paid administrative leave.

It is unknown why Veiga was off the job in the first place, but in order to return, he had to see a physician of the department’s choosing. Veiga allegedly wanted to see his own doctor.